I haven't said anything for years. Don't know why I think this is the time or why I think anyone would anyone would even read this. Things have changed so much sense my last post. There have been ups and downs, I have learned a lot and changed so much. I learned that I've been a fool and been a made a fool of. People learn and life goes on. I still am who I am and I realize that nothing anyone can do will change that. I had a house, lost it, now live in an apartment for yet a unknown time. I feel like I'm always taking a step backwards whenever I feel like I'm moving forward. Am I in the clear now or is this a feign just like the other times...?